I was just sat in my back yard staring up at the red velvet sky and as the sky went dusk and all the clouds passed me by my mind started playing up as usual and making me have some deep thoughts about feeling Have you ever just sat so still and stared up at the beautiful sky and thought about why life treats us the way it does? I like to believe we all have a little control over where our destiny takes us, but i feel sometimes life just likes to mess up our heads purposely. You see, many things in my life inspire me to write, provoke me to think and push me to do, but it's when i get lost in thought that i think life must be a true bitch! Ive been thinking about where my path is trying to take me and why i choose to hurt myself or let others hurt me. Ive been thinking about a lot of things, the main one LOVE, the most powerful of things, which always strikes us in the strangest or most uncontrolable of ways and sometimes i wish something would just make all the pain which mascardes with love just stop! I came in to my house and put on some music, which just happened to be my dad's LOVE Legends CD, not a typical pick for me but i stuck it on anyway and a song ive had metioned to me in conversation struck a real nerve and i found myself tied in nots with emotion. The song- Robbie Williams Angels. Its just some of the lyrics really touched a nerve and all i wanted to do was hold the person i love in my arms and tell him i never want to lose him and that id spend my life trying to make him happy. You see one stray tear from him, one singualr touch or the soft carress of his lips on mine or one cheeky grin are all i need to touch me. I could live without air, or water, or warmth, surviving purely on the rure emotion he injects into my vains like a stiking poison. I would love him to be by my side always but even if he was a million miles away i would in my heart still feel his presence with me.